Last night was a terrible night! Part of my trouble is this chronic insomnia. God is dealing with that. First of all, I would like to apologize if my devotion sounded like I was giving up on my life. I'm not! I do have many things in which to be thankful. I have been praying all day...and I mean ALL day! I guess I feel like Peter. I do feel guilty, childish and selfish. But I also feel deep remorse for my actions. I don't think I gave up on God like last night...the Bible says that anything we do against God COMES FROM SATAN, and not from us. Now God forgives me. Will you?
We as Christians are always learning how to live more like Christ. But we are only human, born to make mistakes. I am making a profession of faith that I will not allow Satan to use anything in my personal life to derail me from spreading God's Glory. True, I don't understand what is happening...I may never. But no matter what life throws my way, I can not give up. I have been writing devotions for a few years now, and I honestly truly enjoy trying to search for the words God wants me to write. So, regardless of my situation, I do have faith that God will use every single devotion for His Glory. God loves me very very much, regardless of how I feel at times. He also loves You! Please take my advise and don't let Satan cloud your vision of Jesus Christ. I will continue to write devotions with His help!
Psalm 32:5 says, "I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity, I said ' I confess my transgressions to the Lord'- And you forgave the guilt of my sin."
Father, forgive me! Even at my darkest hour, I know You have a wonderful plan for my life. I accept what I can not have, and I will strive to further Your perfect Kingdom. In Jesus Holy name, Amen.